Starting over here, Dec 7, 2011.

There you have it!!

AND COUNTING!!!! .....

The time has come ...

To return.

Everything I thought I worked so hard to lose has returned. I do not feel good about myself right now and there is only one thing I can do about it, besides seeing the doctor on Tuesday. Hopefully getting the ball rolling on figuring out this thyroid thing will further help me get this all figured out.


I have stopped smoking, I now vape (e-cigarettes) maybe that will eventually help working out be a little easier, if that is even possible for me. Working out was not so hard, it was fun and made me feel good, but it was running and endurance in the smoking aspect was the problem.

The lack of seeing results when you know you are working super hard and losing 1.2 pounds and knowing others too who do the exact same thing would lose 4 pounds, very disheartening to say the least, but now it is time to take what I can get in losses and get started again!!

E.A. Sports Active: Week 1, Sun. Oct 17 to Sat. Oct 23.

Sunday, October 17, 2010.
Target: 111.3 calories
BURNED: 117.2 calories.
Time: 15.46 minutes.
Fantastic-93% Gold.

Tuesday, October 18, 2010.
Target: 130.4 calories.
BURNED: 145.8 calories.
Time: 21.03 minutes
Excellent: 92% Gold.

Wednesday, October 19, 2010.
Target: 80.8 calories
BURNED: 89.2 calories.
Time: 14.57 minutes.
Fantastic: 84% Gold.

~Got a trophy on Wednesday. 10 hours worth of workouts accomplished!!

Lack of drive.

I still possess the motivation, but not the drive. I want to be back on track, for myself. Finally got the L-Tyrosine and B-Complex & B12, with continuing on a regular scheduled Coconut oil (2 pills a day, one in the morning and one around dinner) with a multi-vitamin at night.

I am doing the research I need. Additionally, the Wii is FINALLY back. I can finally get back on E.A. Sports Active and that is the plan tonight. I am going to start another low activity 30 day challenge and just keep with the pills and with the workout. 22 workouts in 30 days, minimally. I still want the Gazelle, 3 times a week for extra burn, I guess minimally. Not sure at this point... Just know that I am still waiting for the results and trying to remain hopeful for the best.

The pills (on day 3 of taking them) are doing pretty good. Perhaps if I got 6-7 hours of sleep tonight, I could better gauge how I am tolerating them. Lately it has been 4-5 hours of sleep and I am tired around dinner, but I have energy. Not feeling like if I don't take or sleep at some point through the day that I am going to die. Recently, my fatigue has just been horrible and I was falling over within a few hours of waking up for the day.

The stress has been pretty high, but now I can see my life a little cleared. The L-tyrosine has a good effect on me, really. I am super happy in my relationship, and I can finally see that my husband is happy in our relationship, that's a huge weight off my shoulders. There is always the kids and there will always be the kids, but that is being pushed in a good direction too. The hope is that this is a time of a good change, for all of us and everyone's moods can match mine at this point. Content, with a REAL smile on my face. However, moods in my family is always a touchy subject at best (especially Nickolas) and a whole other blog all together.

The point is, I am once again trying. But, sometimes it is hard to stick with something when you are working so hard and seeing only the bare minimal. It's easy to say "Ah, next week" and next week is the same, or worse in the loss department. The hope being, eventually I will see 160, then 145. This is for me, and again, I am going to do it.

Update: September 14, 2010.

I have been very bad lately. I have backed off of my working out, and watching what I eat as a whole (still controlling portions.) My personal life is a little more complicated than most between my children and I have found myself off track due to many different circumstances in my life right now, but... I am putting an end to it.

I have been working out here and there and even made the mistake of doing a Jillian Michael's video On Demand... It did not disclose that it was an intermediate workout, I just thought I could blast my abs for 23 minutes... Well, I made it 12 minutes in and said forget about it... The Gazelle has been used for 10 minutes here and there every couple of days, but now after a talk with a friend I think it is going to be hit hard once a day for at least 5 days a week.

I also am looking into purchasing a treadmill around Black Friday time, maybe sooner, but it just depends on funds and how that works out for us, I don't want a manual one... I would like electric, that's more helpful. It's about to get cold and starting a routine of walking/running the bike trail is just not a viable option right now, but look out workouts here I come again!!

EASA for Friday, August 20 to Thursday, August 26

Week weight loss goal: 1.6 pounds (180.5 lbs)

Friday, August 20, 2010.
~ Rest Day (Sick)

Saturday, August 21, 2010.
~Rest Day (Sick)

Sunday, August 22, 2010.
30 day challenge: Still recovering...
Calories expected to burn: 106.5
Total calories burnt: 102.5 (-4.0 cals)
Time: 16.20 minutes
Fantastic: 85% Gold Medal

Monday, August 23, 2010.
30 day challenge: getting better...
Calories expected to burn: 101.6
Total calories burnt: 108.7 (+7.1 cals)
Time: 16.53 minutes
Fantastic: 94% Gold Medal

Tuesday, August 24, 2010.
30 day challenge: Sports day
Calories expected to burn: 87.2
Total calories burnt: 95.2 (+8.0 cals)
Time: 15.00 minutes
Fantastic: 95% Gold Medal

Wednesday, August 25, 2010.
~Rest Day

Thursday,August 26, 2010.
30 Day challenge: Squats/running
Calories expected to burn: 108.5
Total calories burnt: 107.3 (-1.2 cals)
Time: 15.24 minutes
Fantastic: 83% Gold Medal

My workout: Cardio/Sports
Calories expected to burn: 95.5
Total calories burnt: 112.7 (+17.2)
Time: 18.48 minutes

Daily calories burnt: 220 calories burnt!!